I’m just gonna do a non-friends entry for the ones who weren’t in
I was the first to arrive on the airport and one minute later Femke arrived, and we had a little chat while I was having a cigarette. Than Linda arrived, which was great, cause the trains had a delay and didn’t expected her to be there so early J. We decided to go to the check in desk, and since Linda and me only had handluggage we were ready pretty quickly. At the airport I had another smoke and we gossiped about people from PN. Really funny. Than it was time to get on the plane. I got again a bit nervous, so I took my medication. The flight was actually pretty great, and only at first when we left the airport I got a bit nervous. But I started enjoying the flight! That was nice. Well the trip to
We walked to the hotel, which was great, really close to
Saturday we woke up at about , got showered and dressed and got next door to go to Starbucks for breakfast. We had to meet up with Bodge at 12.30, so we decided to walk up to
We got kicked out of RS, so we decided to wait outside for Jamie. After a while Sam came out, and we all went “Bye Sam”, which was hilarious. Than the big moment (lol), Jamie came out. Fortunately, I was first in line, so I gave him my present, and he said he unwrap it later. There was a randomly drunk guy who started singing Ain’t that a kick in the head, and Jamie joined, right in my ear, which was fab. I got a kiss (again!) and a hug, and he signed my clock. No real conversation, since the drunk guy kept singing, but it was nice to see him again. Adele was next and she told him she loved Jamie’s arms and got to touch them. I think she also got her picture taken with him, but she lost her camera as mentioned before. I was in the way of the people packing the instruments in the car, so I had to leave, which sucked, cause I didn’t see anything from what happened with Linda, Phoe and Bodge. But, I was chatting to Femke, Sam and Reggae, and we think we saw Jamie’s Ebay stalker, which was just wrong. Anyway, we all got to talk to Jamie and got autographs and Bodge’s father was waiting for us to leave, so we left. There was a car standing right next to us, with a few people in it, and I noticed Ben up there, and he waved at me. We left to our hotels, and said goodbye, half spazzing in the car though. Linda and me got to our room (got a funny look from the guy who worked in the hotel, who must’ve thought why we got back so late, at I think). We spazzed some more and didn’t got to sleep till I think. Woke up at 10am by a call from Phoebe to ask us if they’d came over to our hotel, since they got kicked out already. Linda and me took a shower and packed with the 3 girls in the room, and spazzed some more. Siobhan was waiting for us at the next door Starbucks, so we had breakfast there, and I bought a Herbie Hancock possibilities cd, which I’m listening to right now, and it’s brilliant. We taped a little video for the people who weren’t there, talking randomly about arms, the gig, mr. Cullum and more. We went up to
- Current Music:Herbie Hancock posibilities cd
Since PN isn't working, I'll just post it up here!
Happy Birthday Ben (and Prince Willem-Alexander!). Hope you have a great day!
(And yes, my ribs are still sore :P )
If you consider yourself a friend, post here and I'll keep your name in my list.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
 Who are you?
 Are we friends?
 When and how did we meet?
 How have I affected you?
 What do you think of me?
 What's the fondest memory you have of me?
 How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
 Do you love me?
 Have I ever hurt you?
 Would you hug me?
 Would you kiss me?
 Would you fuck me?
 Are we close?
 Emotionally, what stands out?
 Do you wish I was cooler?
 On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
 Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
 Am I loveable?
 How long have you known me?
 Describe me in one word.
 What was your first impression?
 Do you still think that way about me now?
 What do you think my weakness is?
 Do you think I'll get married?
 What about me makes you happy?
 What about me makes you sad?
 What reminds you of me?
 What's something you would change about me?
 How well do you know me?
 Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
 Do you think I would kill someone?
 Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
B - Band listening to right now: urm Don't know it's on the radio. Sounds good though..
C - Career in future: Journalist or maybe screenwriter
D - Dad's name: Jacques
E - Easiest person to talk to: Linda
F - Favourite song at the moment: Jamie Cullum - The sweetest thing
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Bears
I - Instruments: Guitar
J - Job title: Secretary
K - Kids: No thanks
L - Longest car ride ever: 10 hours in a horrible bus to Paris
M - Mum's name: Elly
N - Number of siblings: 0
O - Oldest sibling: don't have any..
P - Phobia[s]: Airplanes
Q - Quote you like: Britney Spears has snakes and lesbians, I have my nan's carpet - Jamie
R - Reason to smile: Seeing Jamie in 11 days
S - Song you sang last: Some old childhood song
T - Time you wake up: 9.15 (really early on my day off)
U - Unknown fact about me: erm.. Don't know
V - Vegetable you hate: I hate most vegetables
W - Worst habit: smoking
X - X-rays you've had: foot, leg.
Y - Yummy food: Italian food
Z - Zodiac sign: cancer
I was trying to add something interesting here.. But I can't think of anything.. *hides*
Anyway, I'm gonna try again..
An update on my life: I went to see the doctor yesterday, and she's going to make an appointment with a therapist for me, which is actually more than I expected. So that's nice!
I had a really nice talk with Marco last night, he actually made me cry by saying I could call him any time of the day if I wanted to talk.
Last night was absolutely fabulous! Jamie's North sea jazz gig was aired again, although it was a bit different than the gig shown before. It was even better, they showed I could've danced all night (YES, the sexy dance!) and In the wee small hours (I cried when I heard that). You could've seen a bit of me in the show too.. Cameraman obviously liked me, lol! I can't remember that much about the gig, cause I wasn't a big fan like now. I was totally blown away by him, but didn't knew he played High and dry. I'm a great Radiohead fan, and actually cried during the gig, when I heard that song.. I also know Jamie and me holding hands (how could I ever forget about that, when it was aired on national tv..) and my friend being totally jealous, she was right next to me, but Jamie didn't hold her hand..
Anyway, this is it for today (a little less shorter than the original post though).
I'm MOVING out! Well not next week or anything, but I finally decided that's the right decision for now. God I feel so relieved! I'm gonna save so much money now (which means no more shopping..:()and trying to move out next year. Although there are three trips planned for me, I still need to make it.
It's nice to make a big decicion with my parents, it felt like they were relieved too. I actually had such a laugh last night with my mum, and that was a really long time ago.
The only thing that needs to be in my house is.. Cable internet! LOL! I can't live without it, and that's probably the only thing I can think off.. LMAO. I will try to talk to my boss this week about a raise, we've talked about it before, but me making this plans and thinking about money.. I need that raise so bad!
Well this was not the only thing I've been doing this weekend.. How about watching that dvd! The English people can buy it now, so it's only fair to talk about it.. Lol!
Oh and Lin: I am your number ONE supporter! Haha, i think I have to write a lot about you and the bb thing the next few weeks, so I can actually win the price for best supporter..
- Current Mood: relieved
- Current Music:Jamie.. of course
Jamie's dvd arrived yesterday, which was so sad.. I had to pick up my parents on the airport, cause they're back from their holiday. Yay! I have missed them loads, and now that they're back, I'm annoyed with them again.. It's so hard, trying to be nice to them, they've bought me loads of presents, but it seemed to me they didn't care about how I felt for the last couple of weeks. So that was a bit of a dissappointment..
We arrived home at about 3 pm, and there was the dvd.. I kept looking at it, and my parents weren't as excited as me. Well anyways, we talked till about 7 pm, and than my parents went to bed, jetlagged and tired from their journey. I almost ran upstairs to my room, and watched the dvd 2 times. It's really great, and the second time I started crying when Jamie sung But for now, and at the end, when the gig is finished, wow! Such a Jamie-thing to do, and really beautiful! I'm now watching it for the fourth time.. I'm sure it won't leave my dvd player for a really long time..
- Current Mood: confused
- Current Music:Jamie's dvd.. :)
Saturday (but hopefully tomorrow) I will be able to watch Jamie's dvd! I just needed to get it out!
I just received an e-mail from Bol.com where I've ordered it from (thanks for telling me Pierrot!) and it says that i'll be receiving it within two days, which basically mean I'll have it tomorrow. God how exciting am I.. Haha..
Today I went for a major shopping trip with my aunt and cousins to Amsterdam. Well I was planning for a moneyspending day, but it turned out not so good. Got a really nice jacket for the winter, which I was looking for for weeks. I also got some nice shirts, cleavage is huge, haha! Nice for my next date, which probably will be soon.. Details will follow later, when it actually happens. I was really tired when I came home from Amsterdam, went from home at 8.30 am this morning and got back at 8.00 tonight.. After 5 hours sleep that isn't really good. But I'm still awake!
I've bought a new phone yesterday, which caused some trouble. My sim card died in the new phone, so I lost every mobile number on my sim card, and my parents couldn't reach me if they wanted to. It scared me so much, and I was panicking in the phoneshop.. But it all turned out great, my new sim card has just arrived and everything is working now. YAY!
I've had so much support from the people on PN, and my best friend Marco, that I needed to thank them on here.. THANKS SO MUCH GUYS FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!!! I LOVE YOU!
The only thing that cheered me up was the PN Big Brother thing, how sad is my life, that I have nothing else to cheer me up??
I'm tired, didn't go to sleep till 3 am last night, had set my alarmclock on 10.30 am, but woke up at 12. I went to the doctor on tuesday, and he gave me some sleepingpills, but I'm afraid to take them, cause there are lots of warnings for it. My aunt said they were too heavy for me, and I'll probably be knocked out by them. Although that sounds good, maybe I'll take them tonight.
Wednesday, after a nice day, I talked to my best friend on msn, he's got a new girlfriend, and told me he was going to stay over her house for the night. I said I was jealous, because I want a boyfriend. He said I could have any guy I wanted, he was being so sweet! I needed to hear these words from him, because he just means a lot to me. We have been totally honest to eachother wednesday, the only thing I haven't told him, was that I like his best friend. Don't know if I'll ever tell him, or the guy I like, because I don't want to get hurt again. We'll see.
Today I went to the hairdresser, which turned out great! I have worn my hair in a ponytail for ages, just because I didn't wanted to go to the hairdresser, or just didn't have any money. I was fed up with that ponytail, so I decided to have a haircut. It's weird to do my hair again, but it looks different, and that was exactly what I needed.
Well that's it for now..
- Current Music:Jamie Cullum - Let it snow
I got to work 15 minutes late. Was a bit hectic, my colleague was also later than normal, and I had to do the mail for 4 members, instead of 2. I went to talk to my boss, but she was busy, so I had to wait 45 minutes to get everything out. I went to one of my colleagues, who's also a friend of mine, started talking and crying. After that I smoked a sigarette, talked to my boss for 45 minutes, and cried again. Went back to our room, and told my colleagues what was wrong with me. Cried again.
My colleagues were absolutely lovely, went outside for lunchbreak with a colleague, instead of 30 minutes, we were away for an hour. I bought a scarf, gloves, and a hat in the same colour and a bag! Another bag, I think that's number 30..
Tomorrow I'm gonna call my doctor, and see what he can do for my sleepingdisorder. Hope there's a way to sleep a night through, I hate lying awake.
- Current Mood: crappy
You lighten up my day
Just thinking of you makes me smile
Wondering how you feel about me
Makes me so insecure
You said we should go out for a drink soon
Thinking of that makes me nervous
You are so sweet
Trying to cheer me up when I’m feeling down
I just hope you feel the same for me
And we can be happy together
Too many people hurt
Too many people I can’t help
Too few people who know me
For who I really am
It just rips me apart
My own problems, their problems
Hearing a beautiful song
Makes me cry
I don’t know what to do
I really want to help
But I can’t....
- Current Mood: sad
- Current Music:Coldplay
I'm trying to write a piece for Jamie's christmas gift, about the Jamie Cullum Addict Centre, but I'm so insecure about that. Just the thought Jamie will be reading it. And I'm still trying to figure out which poem(s) I'll put in it. It's just.. Well just that Jamie will be reading it, that thing makes me so insecure.
And that was my whole day. Yes people! It's official: I'm addicted/obsessed.
- Current Mood: confused
- Current Music:Norah Jones - Come away with me
Saturday turned out to be so sad. My cousin came over, to have dinner, go out and she stayed sleeping here. When she arrived, we went to do some groceries. We decided to order pizza for dinner, so we went home again. We ordered pizza, made milkshakes and drank Baileys. Such a great time. Than we turned on the computer, to listen to some music and have fun. My best friend came online, and I asked him about his plans for that night. He said he hadn't made any plans, so I asked him to come over, and bring some friends if he wanted to. He named some of our friends, and what they were doing, and told me his girlfriend was with her parents. I misread that, and thought that one of our friend's girlfriend was with her parents. He asked me if I didn't read that, and than told me again he had a new girlfriend. I was kinda sad and surprised that he hadn't told me before. He said he was going to tell me everything when he came around. And so he did. Well, he told me when we stood outside, when he was about to leave. We had a nice time when he was around, making jokes, drinking and laughing at my cousin's crush.
He left, and he told me about her. He'd met her at a party, and she studies in The Hague, and in the weekends she goes to her parents. She's kinda a punk girl, which doesn't look anything like me, or seems to be his type of girl. He asked me if I was planning to go to the birthday of our friend, and since that is tuesday, I can't go, I have made other plans (Thank god). He really wanted me to go, cause than I could see his girlfriend. Yeah, that's a reason to go! NOT!
Well before he actually left, he gave me a kiss on my mouth (that's a thing we always do), a hug and a kiss on my forehead. That was so cute, I really had to hold back, and not starting to cry.
Thank god, my cousin was there, and we cried, listened to sad songs, drinking and smoking. I was so glad she was with me. We stayed up till 5 in the morning, only talking. When we woke up, at 1 pm today, we made breakfast, and went back to bed, and stayed there till 4 pm.. That was nice!
So that was my sad story for this weekend...
- Current Mood: sad
- Current Music:Jamie Cullum - But for now..